the days goes on..

28/04/09 (Tuesday)

after the sms was replied,
he saw me in school today,
from far he already started looking,
yes,
I was too,
were looking at each other till we passed by each other..
I can't explain what his expression was like..
smiling?
idk..

took class photo today,
argh,
I guess this year's class photo sucked?
another thing is,
i'm not around the same ppl anymore,
from 3B to 4M,
IF i'm in 4S,
how I wish..

talked to weng wah,
he was using the haler?
double LOL.
coz he was across the hall when he was talking to me,
suddenly sum1 used the haler to talk,
imagine la,
every1 was looking at us..
=_=

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

29/04/09 (Wednesday)

was late :(
stand on the stage
but nvm,
many were late too..
lucky didn't bring hp today,
or else sure rampas when they checked my bag..
'he' had solo acting today,
last year he got 3rd place,
wonder what will the result be this year..
took yellow house pic with him,
finally,
a pic where we're both in..
then took netball pic,
on the way back to class,
teck hui was looking,
I stare la :D
'he' saw,
I don't wish him to misunderstand again,
like what happened last year,
when jian yun and I talked to each other every recess..
he thought jian yun and I were together,
caused trouble with jian yun..
sigh..

had netball game after school,
my team won laaa x)
4-2
scored 3 goals,
1 scored by hanny..
last week I scored 7!
damn,
today is hard.
wasn't picked for school representative yet,
cecilia and abirami got picked.
waiting for other 5 players,
hope to be 1 of the 7.. =]

the msg I sent eu,
do eu understand what it meant?

I <3 EU? yes. I >3 EU? yes too.

24/04/09 (friday)

some asked,
"how was ur friday?"
well..
I was happy for once,
yup,
u're rite,
its because of him..
I was walking with jo ee n han,
then keith cam beside me talking to jo ee
bout blowjob. =_=
I pushed him away,
n the next second I realise,
'he' was standing right behind me..
covering his face n smiled
with the shy look,
sigh,
how comforting..
his frens were like
"go nearer la, nearer laa" -.-
he was supposed to walk to his block,
I was supposed to walk to mine..
but he followed me to my block,
n then turned back n walked to his..
he was on the left I was on the right,
he looked over,
I looked too..
there our eyes met..
but,
idk what it meant..
its hard to make a conclusion out of this incident
when the guy is him..
but yea,
I was happy..

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

25/04/09 (saturday)

it was a boring saturday..
my class had barbeque party by the pool,
but I did not go..
lazy lah..
had private tuition,
add maths. =(
but I guess it was still ok?

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

26/04/09 (sunday)



its jian yun's birthday!
I was the 1st to wish. =D
1 second later,
paul wished..
too bad la,
was supposed to go out,
but can't go finally =(
sry jian yun >.<
went pasar malam with chia hui n zl later,
to find foods to sell during carnival..
found but dunno what will happen la..
bought a shirt too, can't help it.. x)

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

27/04/09

its today.. photography session,
incharge by lee weng wah! :]
he finally said hi, smiled n winked at me.
LOL.
took leo pic.
went into 'his' class to collect donation with keith n vincent..
he covered his face.. -.-
passed by his place n he stood up,
stood beside me,
n keith was like pushing me to him n pointing at him..
nvm,
I revenged when jo ee passed by =)
he replied me,
but,
its not the msg I wanted..
sigh..
ksw n lisa said I should be happy?
I don't think I should be..

oh ya,
when I was in 5L collectin donation from Pn. Mary,
she said
"u ask us all the poor teachers all, we'll give,
go ask the rich rich belagak belagak teachers,
they won't even give u a cent."
the 1 on my mind when she said that was,
Pn. SHARIFAH.
ass her,
yelled at me during the photo session coz my hair was not behind my ears,
so many others were like that too la,
and she only saw me.
dammit.



made up my day. C=

can I really move on?
like how eu said?

when eu look

each time eu look,
it just makes me think about a thousand possibilities..
possibilities which may not be true..
possibilities which I want it to happen,
but may not happen..
sigh..
why do eu keep looking,
when eu don't even care?
iLy..
I really do..
sighh..

I wish eu're in my shoes..

idk what's happening...

had singing practise today,
was arranged to stand between swee ee and dixon..
when I went there

dixon : oi!
huan hee : *terkejut* O.O
dixon : why u smell so good ah?
huan hee : zadao -_______-

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

after school,
stayed back for wudo garden and netball game,
when was watering plants in wudo garden,
his class was having chem..
then,
when was coming down the stairs beside tapak perhimpunan,
he was sitting on the stage,
he turned behind n looked at me,
idk why.
I looked back,
n then I turned n walked away.
he said
"I liked her last time, now I move on."
sigh..

how do I move on?
424 days
1 year 58 days..

skipped physics

as usual,
he lined up at the same line as me.
so yea,
I saw him.
the day went as usual,
till physics lesson,
I skipped and went to 4S. =X
they were practising singing at first
and
I was duet-ing with Amer while doing maths homework. :)
his guitar skill,
I salute lahhh..
sang 'thunder', 'lucky', 'love story' and 'the man who can't be moved'..
then a releave teacher came in,
she din noe I was from 4M.
and I was running around the class like nobody's business
for the whole 1 hour.
tats all then.
toodles C=

ni shuo bu ai jiu bu ai?

it happened again..

y do I always reject for eu?
y is it always like tat?
now problems keep coming back..
just like today,
doing the same thing for eu..
just thinking at it,
makes me feel so stupid.
i'm in bad shape bcoz of eu,
eu know,
but just don't care.
today,
according to chia hui,
I looked like a walking zombie,
according to eugene,
I look super bad shape nowadays..
maybe tats the thing which caught his eyes today,
to look at me,
a walking zombie.
I must look like that to get his attention?
idk.
I have a chance to move on now,
its just that,
i'm not sure whether should I or
should I not accept the chance.
if I don't,
i'm really sorry yk,
if I do,
I will do the best I can to be a good gf.
I just need sometime to consider,
I've hurt you once,
I don't wish to do it again.

appreciate you making sacrifices for me.
I will try my best to not hurt you again.

rubik's cube

If rubik's cube is like the 1 on top,
then I'm effin genius,
so are you!
but,
nahhh,
its like


THIS.

everyone seems to be so into this rubik's cube thingy...
I wonder why.
I was once very into rubik's cube,
I bought it and went into the car,
straight ask me mum to mess it up for me,
then i just do n do laa..
and
. . . . .
PUFF!
I DID IT!
not 1 side,
ALL.
I didn't take the pic,
so its smth like


THIS!

I shouted,
lol.
and mummy was like,
wtf?
I said I did it,
she said,
'aiya, luck nia la...'
=(
but I really did it :(
then dunno what happened to the rubik's cube,
pecah semua when I left it in the class,
gonna get a new 1 soon!
:]

why do u just keep looking?
I really wanna know..

why?

like that smiley,
i'm surrounded by happy humans..
everyone around me is so happy,
having a great day,
a perfect boyfriend,
everything they wish that it could be.
I was supposed to call him out from his class to the chem lab alone.
I bring along vincent instead,
vince was the 1 calling him out,
but that ass,
no matter how long we stand there,
he just won't come out.
was it because I was there?
I think that's the reason.
tell me,
why wouldn't anyone wanna ponteng class?
I was being scolded by blardy ms. low for standing there wasting my time,
he watched and still insist to come out,
vince and me just went off,
I don't wish to say this
but
fuck you,
I know I can't live without you,
and I hate that fact.

p.s. : thx for emo-ing with me eugene :]

u're the most unlovable thing
I love in my life.

flirt

what is it about flirt that people like?
yes,
I know,
sometimes I myself would flirt
BUT
not as flirty as this friend of mine.
he is really a BIG TIME FLIRT,
where else can I find a guy whom flirts like him?
u don't believe me?
the proves are in.







=_=

I still Ly

nokia 5800

MY BRO GOT A NOKIA 5800!
wth
did not even discuss with me,
and the next day,
puff!
nokia 5800 came out from the genie bottle.
ish,
jealousnyaaa~ >_<

pls do not misunderstand me